Hey Loves!!! Time for some more vibrations , let's talk. I'm kind of ready for summer to be over, is that weird? Don't get me wrong I love going to pool and having a great time but I usually start to feel this way every year as I anticipate my birthday month of November. October is special to me in so many different ways , it's my anniversary , Halloween is one of my favorite holidays and I love to see the season change. The air starts to smell different and the beautiful warm colors just make me happy inside. Of course as I prepare for seasonal changes I prepare for the changes that will occur in my life as well. I can admit I like change. I don't mind a shift in things and I think because I have such a spontaneous spirit I kind of thrive on everything not being the same everyday. Routines work for some people but for me I can't deal with monotony on extreme levels. It makes the me feel like I'm overly trying to control my life and I cant lie to myself thinking that life doesn't throw curve balls. We obviously as humans have some ability to control somethings but life isn't perfect so I'm not about to even try that bullshit. Sure not sweetie!!
Someone use to tell me Ashtin you're an "angel" and I'm like are you talking to me or did you call the wrong person? We would go back and forth and forwards and back about this angel issue. I was trying to get him to understand that I'm not perfect and I definitely don't try to be. But I do make a conscious decision to put out positive vibrations when I can. I don't entertain the notion that any one is perfect because we are all the same, more like perfect imperfections. I stand in the image of no judgement and when someone looks at me I want them to see their reflection not literally but symbolically. Look at me and see faith, hope and determination. Realize I have moments of doubt and being scared too. We all have struggles, downfalls and insecurities. Don't ever treat people like you are superior or like they are less. I think they were under the impression that I try to overly control my life my trying to be some perfect person but that has never been me. I'm just myself and I have always let my people know, either accept me for who I am or move on because I will never dull my light to stand in the dark with you. Now if you have some trippy glow in the dark type of vibes I'm with that lol.